After another couple rough nights and days with Charlie ... and a few sleep deprived Facebook comments about sleep deprivation and screaming babies ... this is a comment I received from a friend "Awww man, your record scratched".
Clearly a friend who is TIRED of hearing about me being TIRED. Or maybe she doesn't understand that when I say tired it isn't because Charlie wakes up every two or two and a half hours to eat, it is because he wakes up screaming in pain every hour and eating doesn't calm him ... it is the very thing that causes him pain. Sometimes nothing calms him. This isn't the average have-a-newborn tired ... or maybe it is. Maybe as a parent this is exactly what I signed up for. It is!
Maybe this is exactly the stabbing comment I needed to snap me out of my sleep deprived pitty party. The truth is that I called Sara today at work to have a pitty party. The sick husband who isn't sick, the baby who won't sleep, the baby who isn't calmed by eating, the baby who doesn't have peaceful happy awake time, the mom who doesn't take as many pictures of her baby because he is always crying, the mom who is trying to keep up with everything at home, the mom who despite everything just mentioned won't leave her baby for some much needed alone time because if there is one thing I can do its hold my baby ...
Maybe it is time to be thankful that I have a baby to hold. Obviously I am. Thankful I didn't have to go back to work after 6 weeks. Thankful I have long strong arms to wrap my baby up in so he knows he is not alone.
Maybe it is also time to filter my Facebook post ... after all I don't want to become my friend who makes 20 post a day about being unemployed, working out, and drinking vodka ... maybe I owe her a "scratched record" comment. Lol.
I love u Charlie ... squichy faces and all.
P.S. I know u guys are still there for the occasional pitty party but this one must come to an end ... for now.
Ha! Funny I never thought of it as a scratched record!! It's what happens when you're a mom and through the wonders of technology and social networking we can all vent and cry with each other! I never mind but I am one of those people who posts all the time, every little thing, every moment, every rough night....vent away Joles!
ReplyDeleteAnd I'm sure you've tried this but Matilda had, and still does at times, bad tummy problems. The colic water seemed to help a lot! You can give before and after they eat. I have an unopened bottle I'll give you today when I see you! Also, I'm sure you've tried this but in case you haven't, try having him sleep sitting upright more. Helps their tummies digest better.